我的心...

...燈光熄滅了　音樂靜止了　
滴下的眼淚已停不住了　
天下起雨了　人是不快樂　
我的心真的受傷了...

What's going on

In this week, it seemed I lived in another world.
My Daddy reacognited that my Moomy waana divorce him. It's a long story and it keeps about 2 to 3 years already. I can't believe that my Daddy found it occur just right now. Is he dump or stupid?
Everything pushed me a lot in this week. I can't handle it well. I felt strees, pressure, unhappy and lost. I don't know how to stop all these things happen to me.
There is a strong feeling came to me this week. I though I am just a normal woman. Why do I have to push myself so hard? It seems that I can't get out from the bad situation.
Keep going? Or, give up? Where should I go? What should I do? How to do it? Where can I find the answer?

I don't understand

I have tried my best to keep close to gether with Gary. But I think he is not appreciated what I did. I want to talk, but not through the phone. I want it face to face. I don't like to report the whole day schedule on the phone every night. I need talk and feeling sharing. Is every man like this? Never show and talk about their feelings, even happy or sad. I agree that everyone should have their privacy. But what I wanna know is your feeling. Although I do everything I want, but I don't want to make anybody unhappy. Please talk me what you feel.

Be lazy again

I have not written the blog for a week nearly. I have no idea what I have to say. After the trip, I just want to be peace. No matter what happens, I just think take it easy. I will pass through. Stay calm. SInce that, I have no more strong feeling. And I felt really tired for my work. Normally, I sleep at 12 and wake yp at 6:30. MAybe it is another reason I cannot feel.

Back from Singapore

Hi, mate. I am back already. I had a one-week vacation to Singapore alone. Yes, I went to Singapore alone. It is becuase Leslie said I am too young and did a lot of silly things. He shouted at me. He wanted me to take a break. He said he is not gotta fire me, he just want me to have a break. Although he said it is good for me and he did not going to fire me, I was still hurt by what he said. Then, I really went to Singapore. (To be continued...)